My best friend.

I know I've only known you for almost 8 months, but this past couple of weeks that we were together were so amazing. I can tell you everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, about me without judging me. You're always there whenever I need you, and during the time that I really needed you the most. I don't want things to change especially now. I have built feelings for you that I thought I would never do. It sucks to know that you are upset with me and things are about to change drastically. I wish it wasn't like this. If only I can change what I really do feel towards my boyfriend, I would. Please don't go. I would never want to lose a person someone like you in my life. You always tell me that I make you happy, that whenever you're with me you forget all your troubles. That's what you make me feel too. I'm sorry if I can't give you what you want. I love you and I would never ask for someone but other than you. I don't want you to leave me, cause I know for a fact that I would never leave you. I feel so bad about hurting you. I made a huge mistake and now I don't really know how to fix it. I'm torn between you and my boy friend. I really do love you, and now it hurts knowing that things aren't going to be the same anymore.

I'm Back

It's been a while blogger and now I'm finally back to write and use this mothafucker! Sorry for the language but I doubt people would be able to read this post. I've only had 4 posts on this site and honestly, I think the things that I wrote are ridiculously stupid. Most of it is about love and life. Things that I thought at that time were my biggest problem. If only I knew better.

So nothing is new with me, same old shit everyday. I have a full time job at the casino and now I live on my own. Independent and Responsible is the new me, well kind of. I have a boyfriend now which lives 100 miles away from me, which sucks big time by the way. I'm out of school as of the moment just because I don't have money and obviously can not afford a quarter cost of school. It sucks ass but oh well.

I guess that's it for now. Hopefully when I get bored later I'll write once again :)